I could have been asleep over two hours ago. I ended up watching a couple online videos and checking my email. Now, I'm here on xanga, reading all about my past. I've realized my life is nothing but drama. It could become a Lifetime Original Movie, but as far as I can tell, my life has been strung out in a series of television episodes and book trilogies.
I watched the first two seasons of Veronica Mars with my family this past week. Toddy Dunn plays the ex-boyfriend of Veronica, who has a tempermental blackout problem, and a baby with another woman. All I could think about was how similar he looks to Brandon.
Twilight has become the biggest phase for teenage girls, and all are eagerly awaiting the New Moon movie release this November. In the book, Edward (the hottie vamp who loves/wants to eat Bella) leaves her in the middle of the woods alone and runs away. Another Brandon-esque moment in my life. Enter Jacob (the newly found werewolf who has always had the hotts for Bella, and the overall good kid). Jacob consoles Bella through her horrifying and terrible trying-to-get-over-him phase, and Bella uses him for death/thrill-seeking activities. Thomas has become my Jacob, of sorts.
Thomas and I have spoken through texts and late-nite phone calls, of which I find almost uncomfortable considering the fact that he is leaving for Iraq this month. And the part where he has a girlfriend, who coincidentally is a lot like me.
Drama is the center of my life. It seems to find me.
I'm looking for a better job, but I'm really not motivated for anything lately. I look online and in the newspaper everyday, but it's the same-old-same-old ads. My step-dad keeps ragging on me about it, but I really just feel like applying to everything I see. Then I'll have a list for my "weekly report" and I might get lucky and get a job. I may even grow to like it.
Online classes were not great, and I keep wondering if I had been in a classroom, would it have been any different? Yet, "what-if"s are not the best thing for me. There are too many situations where that phrase could be used in my life.
I'm going back to the Natural State for a little vaca with my baby boy. Technically, I'm going to my see my "Tinkerbelle" get married. Thus comes another fad I've found lurking behind every corner. Marraige. Many of my friends are married, or engaged. Another half are pregnant, or have recently (like myself) had children. Many of this group are unwed, so I've almost created a support group. We all need a little help, and I consider myself helpful.
But if anyone from "back home" wants to get together for my week of vaca, contact me. I'd love to see you all, because I just miss you so damn much. Luvs to all.

~Lynnsey

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As I was reading my history book, I got the idea for a potential game with my son. You know when you were little, and you wanted to play "cowboys and indians" if you were the indian you'd stick some sort of feather in a headband and run around tapping your hand to your mouh to make a "war call". Well, one day, I did the war call, and then moved my hand to Nick's mouth. He immediately mimmicked me by opening his mouth wide. When I stopped, a huge grin covered his face. Now, I randomly do an indian call then in turn to it for Nick. He's only recently started to make noises as I pat his mouth. I think he'll get it soon.

Also, sometimes when he cries, he'll make noises that sound like "un-gee" or "ma" which I am trying to steer to become "hungry" and "momma". He's the most adorable thing ever, and I love him to death. Did I mention he's 7 weeks old this week? Next friday, he'll be two months old. It's surreal that he's already getting so big. I hope these years slow down a bit so I can enjoy them. :)

~Lynnsey